Body hair frustrations

I (25F) am feeling extremely frustrated about my body hair & attempts to remove it. I have extremely dark hair that I've been insecure about off and on my whole life. I dont mind shaving my legs and armpits but when I try to shave my pubic hair I get horrible, itchy razorburn, even with exfoliating and using tend skin. I used to get Brazilians but I can't afford to do it regularly and definitely can't afford laser.

Tried waxing and home and it was extremely painful, uneven, and I simply couldn't stop sweating from the stress of just trying to do it myself. I tested nair on my legs and it felt like it didn't even work that great + made my legs super itchy so I'm glad I didn't use it on my bikini line.

And omg don't even get me started on my mustache. It's really not that noticeable to other people but because my hair is so dark I feel super insecure about it. I have extremely sensitive skin & am prove to perioral dermatitis so I have to be super careful with my face. Shaving, nair, and waxing all irritate my face skin way too much. I just reminded myself why I don't bother with my mustache- 2 days ago I felt particularly insecure and just decided to wax it. Now I'm struggling with just a line of folliculutis where the hair got yanked out which is way more noticeable than the hair ever was. 🤦‍♀️

I just feel so frustrated. I look at my friends and either their body is so light you can't see it, or their skin isn't sensitive so they can use any hair removal method they want with no problem.

I don't even know why I suddenly got so insecure about it again. my fiancé doesn't care about my body hair at all and it's not like I'm trying to impress anyone. I just want to feel feminine. 😭 Sorry for the rant, I just feel so at a loss about this.