I’m trying to build my first travel history as the first person from my bloodline to properly travel internationally, but honestly I’ve lost a lot trying.( My older brother)

My older brother was the first graduate in our family and the first one to go abroad on scholarship after fighting a rare aggressive cancer for 2 years in Pakistan. During that time, we siblings became extremely close. We survived hospitals, stress, dark humor, hope, all of it together.

Before everything got worse, our family even made our first proper trip together to Islamabad. Hiking, Faisal Mosque, small moments. Those memories matter a lot now.

Later my brother went to the UK, but the cancer returned more aggressively. Doctors said only a couple people had that specific condition. While he was there, he tried to invite me so I could spend time with him during treatment because we handled everything together emotionally. My visa got rejected. Then rejected again. That still haunts me because I never got to properly be there for him before he passed away.

There’s another complicated part too. One influencer girl connected to his story started sharing parts of it online and grew quickly from it. There were family pressures, misunderstandings, and emotional drama around marriage discussions and support during his illness. I don’t even want to attack anyone publicly. I’m just tired of performative people around pain and loss.

Now I genuinely want to restart life a bit.

I want to travel somewhere affordable first. Maybe Sri Lanka, Turkey, Bali, Singapore, or somewhere realistic for a Pakistani passport holder. Not luxury travel. Just something meaningful that helps me breathe again, build travel history, possibly meet real people who help him in uk without darama , and slowly open opportunities internationally.

If anyone here:
• knows genuine travel agents
• understands Pakistani visa/travel struggles
• knows affordable countries with easier visas
• has scholarship, volunteering, creator, or networking advice
• or simply has practical guidance

I’d honestly appreciate it.

I’m planning to start within the next few months if possible.