how did you become beautiful + confident?

Hi, y'all.

I'm (21F) and I've never been pretty. I have the face of a man and bad facial harmony.

I already do certain things for my appearance, but my facial features (nose, eyes, midface, forehead, philtrum length, skull) are trash. I want to look like the Black women I see online because that's the kind of beauty people praise.

I have never seen Black women who look like me that get used as beauty inspo online, so I have no one to really look at as a guide. You know those Black beauty collages they post on social media? I have never seen a woman who looks like me in them.

I'm very confident in my body and try to maximize other areas, but my face is masculine.

What can I do?

I plan on saving up for cosmetic surgeries (ethnic rhino, upper bleph, jawline surgery, forehead reduction, and upper lip lift), so that is a major goal for me. A long term goal since it'll be facial changes, but one I'd invest in heavily.

Is there anything you all recommend? I've gotten suggestions in another beauty sub that I'll be looking into, but I wanna know what you all did to become beautiful if you weren't in the beginning.